Archive for February 2010
25 Things
1. Did you ever have random moments when you were a child where you caught yourself in a really deep thought like, ‘Why are we here?’ I remember having one when I was three. It was one of the last memories I have at that young of an age.
2. When I was a baby, literally, a baby I was taken to the beach. My mother forgot to put the sunscreen on or forgot to cover me up. Whichever one it was doesn’t matter. I burned. Badly. I was rushed to the hospital. To this day, I am not afraid of the sun itself and have continued to sunburn throughout the years. I am, however nervous in tanning beds. Strange?
3. In various notebooks and a computer I lost I have written chapters for each person I’ve ever met in my life. I plan to compile this into a novel someday. Some chapters have to be re-written due to loss of notes or loss of friendship. Don’t worry, I’ve changed your name.
4. I woke up one morning just over a year ago and decided I hated my life. I hated my job and everything I was doing. As of 2009, I’m on a completely new path in my life and love everything about it. Change was hard and drastic but absolutely worth it.
5. I still get shy and nervous around people I’ve known for years. I still haven’t figured out what that’s about yet…
6. I fall asleep in cars easily. My mother tells me she would put my sisters and I in the car when we were babies and drive around when we were cranky. We would cry for a few minutes and then the sounds and vibrations of the car would put us to sleep.
7. I believe the world should have less speed bumps and more diners. Not because I’m in a rush, but more so the world can slow down. I think people should be forced to slow down and think about things over a cup of coffee and some pie instead of in a parking lot. It could work.
8. I’ll be honest. A list of 25 things seems like a lot at the moment. I’ll pause on number 8 and then continue.
9. Should riots ever break out in the small city of Campbell, CA the first thing I’m going to do is burn the condo I grew up in to the ground. Of course, stupid me, now it’s probably not a good idea since I just posted it in a blog.
10. I miss having coffee with friends/family. When I was younger I would sit all day long at coffee shops doing various things. I would get to hear the greatest stories, I would write the best things down on paper, I would see amazing artwork and having intellectual conversations. I laughed a lot. Once the bar opened up to most of us, the coffee shop became a last resort. I have a feeling in about ten years it will come full circle and I’ll be sitting at a coffee shop again. I can’t wait.
11. Some days, in fact most days, I want to do so many different things at once that I become overwhelmed and doing nothing at all. A few days ago I got nervous and panicked thinking about how much time I’ve wasted and how much more I want to do. That’s a much different and longer list than this one.
12. I love lists. Mainly, top 5.
13. I love reading and have a terrible memory. Despite the memory, four books will never leave my mind when thinking of really good books I’ve read. Enders Game, Jitterbug Perfume, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, and The Long Walk. Thinking about it now I wonder what the common thread is between all of these books that allows me to remember them so well…
14. I wish people would write more letters to each other. I was thinking of a website that would allow you to send letter(s) to one specific address, (so strangers don’t know where you live) and then they would be directed to other random people across the world. You could get letters from people all over, knowing nothing about them and finding out all kinds of goodies.
15. Today, I’m wearing a beanie hat. I never wear hats. I could look stupid but enjoy wearing this one for the first time ever. I’m keeping it on.
16. My legs have poor circulation. I excercise to help with that, but lately Im obsessing one of my legs will fall off or something.
17. I love earthquakes. They’re exhilerating. I guess I secretly like it when my world gets shaken up a bit.
18. One day, I’ll meet Stephen King and he’ll say to me, “Great book. I wish I had written it.”
19. I hate the feel of paper, mostly newspaper and those bags you get at the grocery store. I worked around tons of paper for ten years. Now, I wear finger condoms if I have to touch stacks of papers.
20. I feel like I’m way too distant with my own family. Most of them make me nervous and uncomfortable. My mom’s side makes me laugh a lot. Everyone else’s family is always easier to get out of my shell with.
21. I have an addiction to coffee. I’m sure everyone says that, but even with a lump in my breast and doctors orders for no caffeine I still drink it.
22. I have the same problem with cheese. So much so, my gallbladder had to be removed at the age of 28. Very uncommon for someone my age.
23. I often wonder why I’m here and come up with a different purpose almost everyday. Most days, the answer is to either help someone get through something or to learn enough about tough situations to help other people. The other days, I tell myself I was a bad person in a past life and am being punished now. 
24. I want to be the best at everything. Not only the best I can be but better than you. It’s good motivation, however at most times it makes me loose sight of the actual knowledge and loose out on possible friendships.
25. I like being alone, wandering around alone, and quiet time. Regardless of my wants I feel alone and don’t like that feeling. Go figure.
